I Got Hurt....
Hey.
Long time no chat. Its been a crazy couple of weeks and not in the good kind. I guess we shall start at the biggest event.
On May 13th, I crashed my motorcycle while going 50mph on a curvy road. There was a car that came out of nowhere and I swerved to the right but I hit the gravel and lost control of my bike. The bike was heading towards a telephone pole so I tried to turn it right and It flipped onto its left and I flew off.
I remember everything about the crash and I remember I coulde’t breathe for a good 2-3 minutes. And then the pain in my back was horrible. I think as far as physical pain, that was the worst I’ve ever felt.
The car that drove my stoped and called 911 and I was sent to the hospital. They gave me pain killers and did a CT scan. And for some miraculous reason, I was fine. No broken bones, No internal bleeding, no surgery. Just a bunch of bruising and contusions. Its been a week since that happened and the only thing that hurts is my knee. I honestly cant understand why I wasn’t more injured.
I tried to post a Instagram about this and share my testimony but I think it got the wrong impression and deleted the post. It was overwhelming and I didn’t meant o grab attention. I honestly just wanted to share how much of a testimony builder it was.
But here’s the thing, the mental exhaustion was something I didn’t expect. The countless text was amazing and stressful at the same time. But also the anxiety of “why am I still here” or “why did this happen”. It was very scary because I didn’t know what to do.
I didn’t handle the situation as well as I should have. And I ended up taking it out on a friend that didn’t deserve it. I was really scared, stressed, and doubtful. But I talked to him afterwards and he understood and I apologized and I hope we are good.
The thing is, when your going that fast with telephones near you, a lot could go wrong. And its really scary to think that. But I remember my friend told me that “heavenly father isn’t done with you yet” and “you have a purpose. He knows it and you have to find it.”
Those words have been in my mind ever since the crash. And I am trying to figure it out.
Any doubts I had before about why I am on this earth is gone. I know that there is a reason ad a purpose. But now its time to figure out what it is? Am I here to help others? Am I here to do good?
Im not sure the answers. I feel like the road this year has been rough. Ive felt alone and scared. Ive felt sad and betrayed. And ive been hurt in ways like no other before. But then I have to realize, that throughout all of these trials and burdens, ive made it. Its been painful and I’m not sure if its for a reason, but I walked away from that crash for some purpose. I hope and pray that I will know that purpose soon and that I can live up to what Heavenly Father expects from me.
I am so grateful of our beautiful and loving Heavenly Father and I know that he has a plan for all of us.
With love
-Husain
